Quite Positive

For the first time i have something positive to say because i stayed home the whole day (seniors grad. no school for everyone else!) and i didn't overeat like i felt i would. I do have a confession though my brother decided to treat me to lunch by taking me to McDonald (THANKS A LOT BRO) frankly i just got a salad and water and then just threw the salad away, watching all the fat people eating their food wanted to make me gag, honestly it was disgusting but at the same time i was jealous that they can wear whatever they want, eat whatever they want, and not give a damn. ME. On  the other had i feel like the whole world is watching me saying: "look at that fat girl, she shouldn't be eating that". Ugh but still i see now how strong i am and i'm not afraid for the summer anymore. I occupied my time by watching soap operas on my laptop (sad but it works) in my room, i get to lazy to get up from my bed to find something to nibble on, and if i get hunger pains i grab my in-hand-reach bottle of water, tea, or coffee. So far if i lose 10lbs every week+2days i will be at least 110lbs by the beginning of August, and i will showup all those ass-holes who ever called me fat (yeah i was the loser in elementary school who got made fun of for being fat). Well i started this diet June 1st weighing a whooping 189 a week and 1-day later i am 181.2 i should be 180 tomorrow, and such and such. Well i am just excited at the thought of being skinny =), i know i cannot give up now!